Unfinished Puzzle

UNFINISHED PUZZLE
Unfinished Puzzle
My loneliness has filled and consumed me.
A hollow shell of desolation where once was life.
Where light flowed in abundance, darkness now drowns.
Despair turns beautiful thoughts into hideous, twisted things.
Where love once dwelled in my heart, now only self loathing and pity reside.
Who am I that deserves such a gift as love?
What good have I performed that I should so gladly receive such a boon as hope?
What special being might I be that I would be worthy of such unconditional affection?
This pain monopolizes every thought in my broken mind.
This suffering squanders what little hope my crippled heart might have held.
I lay here, a mutilated corpse of the person I once was.
A fractured soul, residing in a damaged form.
My faith has been destroyed, can anyone rebuild it?
My nerves have been shattered, can anyone fit the pieces back to their rightful place?
My heart has been torn asunder, can anyone revive its right to feel love once again?
My spirit has been dowsed with fear, can anyone reignite its hope?
Blazes of flame stream from my eyes and this fire burns all that lays beneath me.
Everything that I have attained is but insignificant to what has slipped through my grasp.
I give in to the bleakness, hoping, praying for acceptance.
Deep in the confines of my vacant soul, there speaks a voice:
"Maybe there is hope..."
What I wouldn't give to be complete again, but over time, the pieces have gone missing.
If I only knew the prose to utter, yet nothing but riddles spill from unspeaking lips.
If I only knew what tasks to perform to fill my empty heart with love,
I would carry them out   on my dying breath.
What I need are hope and love, yet my search yields no answers or finds;
Like a child searching without hope for the pieces to an unfinished puzzle.
I feel I am doomed to lay ignored and wanting fulfillment.
Until my heart is made whole,
Until my doubting soul laid to rest,
Until my questioning mind is granted answers.
I will be thrown aside.
Never completed; Always wanting.
...Broken.