Love's Lament

I see the path my feet must follow.
I know the way my heart doth go.
a missed chance, consumed with sorrow.
All my love I hope you know.

I didn't want this, not this way.
I didn't want to walk away.
So may things I want to say,
And yet I am afraid.

Can you blame me for my fear?
For what I want, I hold so dear?
Of losing what i clutch so near?
A wolf I may be, but I feel the deer.

So lost in confusion with what I know I must do,
But my insides are screaming, begging for you.
I know what I want but the fear's anew,
Shall I be yours once more or is this adieu?

The pain it grows in leaps and bounds,
You speak so clearly, yet I hear no sounds.
To run, with you the Sacred grounds,
Though I keep searching, you're not around.

My life has been naught but taking a chance,
Filled with painful circumstance,
I long to dance the lover's dance,
Yet i'm afraid I've forgotten the steps of romance.

There is no love where I abide,
From your words I cannot hide.
My love for you consumes me inside,
Yet without you, my soul had died.

You haunt my every waking moment,
I see your face, and my heart weeps its lament.
A full lush heart covered in cement,
This for us, was never meant.

Would you think that I'm a foolish,
To beg you stubbornly and mulish,
Because my heart need's your love's poultice,
I can't live without you.