Time is Ticking

"Do you ever think about growing old?" - ANON


Considering I just had a birthday recently I do think about growing old quite often. Also recently, I've attended a rally in Harrisburg about home health care which makes me realize that perhaps one day I might need this as well, so it's been on my mind a lot recently. 


When i think about growing old, I think about what my life will be like then. Will I be an invalid unable to do anything? Or will I perhaps be one of those 85 year old women seen jogging around towns at 6am? I would love to believe I would be the latter, but considering my health problems that I'm currently facing at my age, it's not likely, since they will only get worse. it's not that I'm afraid to die, but I'm afraid to be alone and leave behind those that I love. If I get married, I would hope that I pass before my spouse does, because I would be very miserable if it were the other way around.

Also, I would hope that as I grow old, I would have a chance to share the things that I've learned and the stories throughout my life with the family that precedes me. I don't like to think that after all these years of taking care of myself, there might come a day where I won't be able to bathe myself, or dress myself or even wipe myself after using the bathroom. I feel that in growing old and facing such things, you lose a lot of your dignity.