Promises are like pie crusts, easily made easily broken

"Do you give your trust easily?" - Anon


Yes, i have to say that i honestly do. I try and trust like I've never been hurt before. I tend to meet people and get to know them, but they have my trust until they do something to lose it. This has usually brought me a lot of heartache and pain and such, but I simply can't help myself as much as I've tried. I trust way too easily though and really should listen to my gut instincts. They are usually right on and incredibly accurate. My gut will tell me one thing about a person. My heart will tell me to give them a chance and be open and honest and accepting. My mind will tell me that everyone deserves a chance and that there has to be a shred of good in all people and that my gut feelings can't be relied upon because I might miss out on a chance of meeting one of the best people in my life. So it can kinda get very confusing.

Then there are the times that for some ungodly reason your heart, mind, and gut all align perfectly. You trust the person wholly and then little by little you find they aren't who they said they are. Things you thought they'd only say to you, they are saying to others. They make you feel special and then you find out you're just one out of a number of other people they are saying the exact same things to. And it hurts. You feel a rush of emotions like jealousy, heartache, pain, confusion. You thought you knew who you could trust, especially because everything in your body said you could trust this person. So in the end no you distrust two people: them and yourself. This is the worst kind of betrayal. You thought that even when everything in the world is going wrong, that you could still rely on yourself to trust. But then you find out that it was wrong.

Are they that good of a liar? Are they that much of a psychic vampire that they can feed off your emotions and feelings and manipulate them to make you trust them? This is the worst kind of person out there. Playing off a persons emotions, their hopes, their dreams. Promising things and then shattering them.

So is it safe to trust people? honestly, no. But trust is a risk you need to take or you will die lonely and alone. Trust is the risk taken in order to find love, and love is always worth the risk.