Saturday, November 20, 2010

Animal Lovers Unite!

"You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?" -Anon


First off let me say that I am a HUGE animal lover. If it came down to shooting a person who was simply an idiot versus shooting a dog with rabies, I would sooner shoot the person. Seriously. I have a huge issue seeing dogs hit on the side of the road and such. It just breaks my heart seeing those poor animals because us humans destroyed there homes and put roads for them to walk across, and then don't even drive safely enough for them to walk across it without getting hit.


So if I saw a dog drowning in a canal, I would do everything in my power to save the poor thing. I'm not much of a swimmer, but I'm sure I could help out at least a little bit. I just couldn't bear to see an animal die because I didn't stop to help it. Jobs come and go. If my boss honestly wants to fire me then fine, let them, but I would save that dog. I'm sure I could find another job, but to simply shrug off that poor dogs life simply because it might be a stray or something? That's garbage. All animals deserve a chance to live. And no life is worth more than another. I would save that dog and honestly, if my manager had a problem with it, fine, let them fire me. I'll be comfortably supported from unemployment and me and the dog will buy a nice steak dinner with my first unemployment payment. 

Friday, November 19, 2010

The Tooth Fairy

"How long did you believe in the tooth fairy?" - Anon


Well, I was always a difficult child and overly curious. About everything. So these stories of the Easter Bunny, and Santa and everything really made no sense to me. I figured if these were tangible beings, I would be able to find out more information about them. You know, all other rabbits leave "presents" on the floor and such... what made the Easter Bunny so civilized that it didn't? And how did a fat man get down a chimney? What about houses with no chimney's? And how big is a fairy exactly? Well, I was determined to find out these answers.

Every time I lost a tooth I would leave a survey. Yes, you read that correctly, a survey. I would ask for name, age, fave color, hobbies, birthmarks, hair color, eye color... i even went as far as to ask for pictures and left a camera there. Well, my mom played along with this for a while and actually made up different fairies and such and it was really cool. All the "fairies" would always say there was no way for them to appear on camera. Well, they used my pencil to write stuff on this paper, maybe I could catch them myself. So I tied a string to the pencil and attached it to a camera. Well, in between finding small teeth in my mom's jewelry box, the handwriting on the survey's matching that of her check book and address book, as well as a horribly dark shadowed picture of what looked like my mother, I disproved the tooth fairy at age 7. And that's my story.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Forget regret, or Life is Yours to Miss

"If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you have "no regrets" what would you change?" - Anon


Well, first off, let me begin by saying, I am one of those people that does't regret anything. I believe the hardships in our lives hold lessons to make us into better people and if we can learn the lessons and move on, than we really haven't lost anything. On the contrary, we've gained something irreplaceable from a horrible situation. I feel that regret is such a waste of time. If you regret something, than you obviously haven't been able to find the silver living in your little black rain cloud. But enough with that, let me jump right into my actual answer.


If i HAD to change something, I would change the fact that 3 years ago, after getting out of a bad relationship, I met the love of my life and was too afraid to admit my feelings for him. If i HAD to go back and change it, I would have told him I loved him. It was a bad situation. I had just gotten out of an emotionally abusive and very controlling 2 year engagement to a man and was pretty much sick of men, commitment, and love in general (or at least, what I had experienced as love up until this point). It's funny how Cupid see's you're ready to give up on love, but every time you're about to throw in the towel Cupid is there to remind you that love isn't ready to give up on you. I let that chance pass me by, and we remained friends.


I openly dated a few people. Hopped from guy to guy just because I was terrified of being serious, yet still ached for that feeling of companionship. As you can imagine, this got me into some tricky situations. All this time I was keeping an eye on the man I was truly in love with. He had his relationships, even got engaged I believe, and I was under the impression that he was happy, so I bottled up my feelings and let them be. I wasn't going to be the home wrecker in anyones relationship. That type of thing was below me. 


The entire time I never realized that he had felt the same towards me. Whether it was simply I wasn't open to seeing the signals, or he was good about hiding his feelings as I was, we were both completely clueless until a few months ago. The chance presented itself and I admitted everything. I never realized how much I had been hurting him keeping him as just a friend and nothing more because my own life was screwed up and I tried to fix it myself while all along he wanted to help and support me. I can't help but think we went through 3 years of unneeded hardships and pains either alone or with uncaring partners when we could have been right by each other's side helping each other through the hard times. 


But, we can't go back and change the past as much as we may want to. And as bad as those 3 yeas of stress and hell were, I wouldn't trade them for the world because the love we share was worth everything I had gone through. 



Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Just Three little Words...

"What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?"  - Anon


This is a tricky question, but I have been in this situation before. It's never usually an easy answer either. To tell someone you love them opens you up and makes you vulnerable. If you aren't sure of their intentions, they can use your feelings against you to get whatever they want out of a situation. To admit that feeling can be thrilling and exciting, or down right terrifying. I can honestly say, that when I experienced the feeling of true love, I was terrified to admit such a feeling. And to make it worse, I was in love with a friend of mine. I was terrified to possibly ruin the friendship, and so I kept it to my self. three years later I found the chance to admit these feelings (which I still have) and I jumped on this chance because I didn't want to live my life with any regrets. He could die tomorrow and I would never have gotten the chance to say how I felt. I am glad I did because I've never been happier.


I would honestly say that it would be harder for me to tell a person that I don't love them back. In high school, I fell in love easily. I was a hopeless romantic. A nerdy girl who read too many fantasy novels and watched too much sailor moon where a 14 year old school girl can find her soul mate at age 14 (this just doesn't seem to happen in real life as much as I wish it would). I was constantly told that I was "too good of a friend", but I really think that just meant "sorry you aren't hot enough to be seen as anything other than a friend." I had my heart handed to me in pieces several times because I was told I wasn't loved in return. At least, not in "that way". So i know what it feels like to take that leap of faith, open yourself up and then be rejected cold and hard right on the spot. That feeling sucks!


I am a people pleaser and hate to see people upset. For me, being empathetic, it would break my heart to have to tell someone that's admitted love for me that I just don't feel the same. I mean, here they are pouring their heart out to me and I get to be the one that makes them cry? It's a sucky situation any way you look at it really. But, as I always say: better a truth that draws a tear, than a lie that brings a smile. 

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

A Dilemma

"You can have one of the following two things: trust or love." - Anon

I think this question is completely loaded. I am under the belief that in order to have a decent relationship, both of these aspects are incredibly important. After all, no one likes to be in love with a person where they are second guessing every decision they make and searching for that persons ulterior motives. But then again, if you truly love that person, despite the lack of trust, would you second guess their every move? It really makes you think. Or would you rather be in a relationship where you trust the person 100% but you don't love them? Well, I do have to admit, it is very practical. Not having all the ups and downs of love being in the way. Emotions clouding your mind and decision. Would be very practical indeed.

Honestly, I would choose trust despite the fact, or maybe because of the fact that I'm a hopeless romantic. I have been in relationships where there is love but no trust. It's not a pleasant kind of love. It's like an addiction. Like being a smoker. Sure, you love that first drag on a cigarette. That cold feeling of menthol when you exhale. The way the butt sits in between your fingers, or how the smoke wisps through the air. But you're killing yourself. You know it's bad for you no matter how much you love smoking. It's not a healthy relationship at all honestly. All it brings is pain in the long run.

I would choose trust simply because I believe with trust automatically comes love. If you can trust a person, you must have some form of caring feelings for them, whether it be friend or a romantic interest. And love is something established over time, so who's to say you won't "grow to love" this person in a romantic way? 

Monday, November 15, 2010

Eyes Are the Windows to the Soul

"What is more difficult: looking into someones eyes when telling how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they tell you how they feel?" - Anon


I have always had a hard time keeping eye contact with a person. It's not that I'm lying or anything, I just feel very vulnerable looking into peoples eyes unless I'm 100% comfortable with them. It's always been a weird habit of mine. I feel like by looking into their eyes and seeing the truth and emotions that their eyes show but they don't say makes me feel like I'm invading their privacy. It's weird. I've always felt like that too. So it's not something new to me.


As far as which would be easier? I find that It would be easier to look into a persons eyes when they're telling me how they feel. Simply because I would know if they are lying. If I'm face to face with them I can see if they are being genuine with me. It's nice to hear the truth of how they feel, but to also see the truth of how they feel. Whether it's someone expressing undying love, or you're being broken up with, I would want the courtesy of being able to see the truth shining in their eyes. 


I would have a much harder time looking them in the eyes while I admitted my feelings. I am pretty closed mouthed with how I feel to begin with. usually I'm the strong person who admits my feelings only to myself and those I really honestly and truly trust. So for me to look into a persons eyes when I'm admitting my feelings to them would make me twice as uncomfortable. 

Sunday, November 14, 2010

I am not livin la vida "loco"

"Have you ever had four loco?" - All of Facebook


No. No I haven't. I flat out refuse to. For one, I'm not a huge drinker since a certain night 2 years ago when I had way too much to drink and thought I was going to die. You know you have had too much when you're not sure if your eyes are close, or if you've gone blind. Enough said. Ever since that night my alcohol tolerance is pretty much 1 Martguerita = tipsy for me. If i drink a 6 pack of some fruity, girly 7% alcohol drink, I'm probably plastered at that point. Also, alcoholism runs in my family, so I think I'd like to keep that as a statistic and not a reality for me, thank you very much.

Also, I don't see the point of mixing Fruit falvoring, alcohol and caffiene. That just seems like a horrible idea to me. Your brain on alcohol = everything is slow motion. I'm chill. Your brain on fruit flavoring = oh yummy. Your brain on caffeine = WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. You mix that all together and I'm pretty sure my heart would explode. I would have such a wicked hang over it would not even be amusing. I would literally rather die than deal with that kind of pain.